Hide Away

Seen a disfigured face?
A deformed look?
Flawed to the point of unbearable sight?

If this is the reason to being hideous, it's well understood.
But what if it's pretty normal looking or even looking presentable
and yet the feeling of hiding away is so... strong?

What's the hiding?

Hideous...hiding...hide way.
Let no one find me
Let me be away from all that sees
Where no eyes can hold me
In a place of no-seeing
No eyes looking,
non-perceiving
here, there
Safe, safe everywhere...

Was that it? Fears? I heard you say.
Oh No! Not only fears...

It's deception, it's self-dishonesty,
self-betrayal and hiding from self what is to be seen.

Buried the truth within,
wrap it up like a gift with pretty ribbons over it
and color papers of yours and my liking.

but what's inside it is,
a chunk of surprises that before opening up
it's not all sweet already.

Something that I'm not willing "TO SEE"
"TO FEEL" "TO KNOW" and what could that be?

It's just too uneasy and mysteriously dark, for me...

Is this a game of hide and seek?
Ah...like God always hiding.
Even we were told that the Divine is in everything,
animate and inanimate, but do we see?
Of cos' God's hiding from me.
And I...
I'm hiding from me...

How long shall this be?
A game of hiding in the seeking
And who's in the hiding and the seeker seeking?

I don't know how to find, with a map or
a compass or A heart of TLC?
What kind of operation is this, can anyone tell me?

So, all that is hidden becomes known,
as my intuition abounds through clarity of vision.

So soon enough. I'll expose Me, Myself and I.

What a wait!
What an awful confusing and mysterious game...
The hideous and the seeker is the one same being...Gosh!

God and I are also one....real confusing!

What a path!
What a game!
Of Hiding Away.